Today’s was a small act of kindness. I was sitting in red mango working on my presentation and a caretaker wheeling an elderly lady walked towards the door. Without much thought, I got up to hold the door for her. Both she, and the caretaker seemed awfully thankful for such a tiny inconvenience.
On a side note: Today, it got a little crowded on the train and a man gave his seat up for an older lady. It made me happy to catch an act of kindness in action ^.^
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knowing to be still and waiting on God is by far the most difficult thing for me right now. not everybody goes through this trial of “waiting” to see what God has plaed for their future, but most do at one point in their life. for me that point was when my fiance broke off our engagement. the patience for me has been a true struggle. struggle would even be an understatement. i will be honest, i have fell so short of The Lord many many times and yet, He continues to show me to be obedient and trustworthy. i have lived with one foot in the world and one foot in with God and the sadness and loneliness with my foot in the world completely outweighs everything. im walking proof, He really is the way to pure happiness.
i was plaing my entire future with my soon to be husband and in what felt like a second, it was all over. when i would try to go through my days without Jesus I was a hot mess, im talkin rollin out of bed, barely making it into work, cutting off all of my friends, stopped going to church, my life was literally about to crumble. i felt as if my entire world was flipped upside down, thrown in the washer, then in the dryer and then spit out with me left all by myself. then all of the sudden after much prayer and a whole lot of balling my eyes out, i was like oh mah gosh, get a grip, pull it together and it was made clear to me that Jesus is who my heart should belong to. how the heck could i go off and get married when i wasn’t even fully content with just Jesus in my life? once i realized this, i knew i had to build my foundation stronger with God and allow Him to make me happy before a man on this earth ever could.
although the ending to my engagement was not my choice, it has by far opened my eyes, and became a blessing in disguise (i often feel like in another life id be a rapper). i started getting up in the morning, taking showers (i know, gross. this i know, dont judge me), I started to get back into a routine of some normalcy BUT with God first this time in everything. now dont get crazy, im far from perfect and some days i was (and still am on some days) a train wreck but i know now that when those gosh awful days hit me, i can turn to Jesus in prayer and talk to Him about whats on my mind instead of having a pity party.
it took time to get to this stage, and i wanted to punch everybody in the face every time i heard, “it will just take time, things will get better” but it really did. my point is, for whoever is actually reading this is, A. don’t be a fool and wrap your life up in a freaking guy and leave God chillin in the corner cause honey, it wont be full of honey or anything close to sweet and B. trust Jesus with your life cause this fool has the ability to turn it upside down and lessbehonest, “aint nobody got time fo dat”.